i just realized that newjeans in omg are talking about an imaginary boy and they don't wanna admit their delusion because he's always there for them. that's not the realization part, but I just realized I have the same thing. i can't let him go. even tho i'm getting better and had more people who were there for me, i still couldn't let him go. it's been years since i was like this and it's the reason i can't live a normal life or find my identity. i'm scared it's gonna be this way forever. i even gave him a birthday. it's coming up soon.