Hi. I dont know why I pried to read this latest journal and I feel sorry, or Idk. Like I know we went off in not so good terms despite everything... and like... lifes getting worse everyday with the politics and news and the money is tight thing? Heck, even my family's not immune to it. My cousins are getting broke too and like my paranoid spiritual self is like "oOoOOoO we're probably seeing the end times or being punished for being evil aaaaa" or something and like uhm... yeah i rambled again sorry about that. but just so you know, even if we're not friends anymore, I don't hate you. I guess once you grow up you realize that even if you dont always get along with a person doesnt mean you have to witchhunt them or like keep hatred in your hearts forever.
And I know I had no rights to speak out about experiences you and your fellow folk have experienced. And you probably dont even want to be in contact with me again after all that crap and that radio silence crap I did a while back.
Truth is, I just wanted to check on you. I know how hard it is for you and like I wish I could help but since we're so far apart (and I'm sadly most likely not gonna be able to visit America for irl reasons) the best thing I could say is I wish you so much strength to overcome it all. The best thing you can do is outlive and outslay your enemies and do it for yourself, at least. Or for your inner child. Maybe she would want the best for you too.
Again I'm so sorry for cutting you off, I really just hope despite our misunderstandings and the things we dont see eye to eye to, especially our beliefs, wont make us enemies. I loved you so much as a friend and I hope you understand that, even though we dont get along all the time. I just wished you didnt speak so harshly of me considering, even if we speak the same language, we both grew up and were raised differently, so obv we would clash in some beliefs, customs, cultures and whatnot.
To think of it, ironically enough I dont even like my own people. So I shouldnt be putting words in your mouth either, that would make me a hypocrite. Am I racist then...? (mostly the guys here, i dont trust the guys here enough) like... a lot of the guys at my place dont really.. well, a lot of them are pretty sexist and misogynist and homophobic and have very, VERY bad hygiene. Like stuff like that messes you up.
I cant believe it took me so LONG, so frickin long to see what you mean. I mean yes, it is a very petty and pet-peevey example, but I hope you get my message. The experiences we get shape who we are and how we perceive things. And it's okay to be a bit defensive. I should've been more sympathetic to you. I've researched and I've learned through mom and dad the stuff your peers experienced with, the you know whos. And I'm so sorry for being so assuming. The thing is, cops here in my place are very different from your place. And I shouldnt have assumed all cops are the same, and I shouldnbt have thought the world was literal or black and white like how the cartoons and tv shows portray them as (frickin propaganda i tell you). And now with the political situations and the hurt and hate around the world, I swear it's like my eyes were opened and in a bad and good way.
Again, I'm sincerely sorry for what I did. And for everything.
I just want us to get along again if ever... you're one of the greatest things that happened to my life. I miss us talking and laughing over silly things and listening to reversed music. And heck, I still read the fiction you wrote and I'm so glad you delivered.
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And I know I had no rights to speak out about experiences you and your fellow folk have experienced. And you probably dont even want to be in contact with me again after all that crap and that radio silence crap I did a while back.
Truth is, I just wanted to check on you. I know how hard it is for you and like I wish I could help but since we're so far apart (and I'm sadly most likely not gonna be able to visit America for irl reasons) the best thing I could say is I wish you so much strength to overcome it all. The best thing you can do is outlive and outslay your enemies and do it for yourself, at least. Or for your inner child. Maybe she would want the best for you too.
Again I'm so sorry for cutting you off, I really just hope despite our misunderstandings and the things we dont see eye to eye to, especially our beliefs, wont make us enemies. I loved you so much as a friend and I hope you understand that, even though we dont get along all the time. I just wished you didnt speak so harshly of me considering, even if we speak the same language, we both grew up and were raised differently, so obv we would clash in some beliefs, customs, cultures and whatnot.
To think of it, ironically enough I dont even like my own people. So I shouldnt be putting words in your mouth either, that would make me a hypocrite. Am I racist then...? (mostly the guys here, i dont trust the guys here enough) like... a lot of the guys at my place dont really.. well, a lot of them are pretty sexist and misogynist and homophobic and have very, VERY bad hygiene. Like stuff like that messes you up.
I cant believe it took me so LONG, so frickin long to see what you mean. I mean yes, it is a very petty and pet-peevey example, but I hope you get my message. The experiences we get shape who we are and how we perceive things. And it's okay to be a bit defensive. I should've been more sympathetic to you. I've researched and I've learned through mom and dad the stuff your peers experienced with, the you know whos. And I'm so sorry for being so assuming. The thing is, cops here in my place are very different from your place. And I shouldnt have assumed all cops are the same, and I shouldnbt have thought the world was literal or black and white like how the cartoons and tv shows portray them as (frickin propaganda i tell you). And now with the political situations and the hurt and hate around the world, I swear it's like my eyes were opened and in a bad and good way.
Again, I'm sincerely sorry for what I did. And for everything.
I just want us to get along again if ever... you're one of the greatest things that happened to my life. I miss us talking and laughing over silly things and listening to reversed music. And heck, I still read the fiction you wrote and I'm so glad you delivered.
I miss you kiwu 💜