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jjangwonrei_sha758 ([personal profile] jjangwonrei_sha758) wrote2025-06-23 08:17 pm

whoopsie daisies...

Been out of the loop these past few days XD
I've been even more addicted to customizing my laptop, and maybe my tablet and phone too eventually while we're at it. Also pc just ded oof
and uhmmmmmmmmmmmmmm I still haven't worked on my stories but that's alright, life gets in the way sometimes and I'll admit, I am indeed very lazy on keeping things together yet put much more effort in unrelated things, like finishing 80% of an ive fangame on scratch but stopped once I needed to write more complex code for save game purposes, and I don't have money as of now to get someone to write that save data code for me aaaaaAAAAAAAAA

I'm still on my y2k phase and I'm starting to think it's not a phase. It's been months and I'm still yearning to wear outfits like those girls from mean girls and like basically blinged out 2000s stuff. I love fitted clothes so much it makes me feel AND look slim even if I aint XD (no harm to plus sized people tho! they're so adorbs <3)
Right now I'm still taking notes with what aesthetic I want my laptop to be since I'm conflicted with giving it 2000s cutecore webcore + mac os x vibes OR if I want a general mcbling or y2k aesthetic. Since my laptop was nearing cyber y2k anyway but FOR SOME REASON my brain just went WHOOSH and wanted something different. Again.
Also ANNOYED cuz one of my fave themes keep displaying text ultra small and I'm figuring out how to fix it cuz the apply font size thing isnt working!! UGH!
i swear i keep fussing over the most randomest things and yet important stuff like my wriitng job gets the shorter end of the stick... but mom says i shouldnt worry about everything in life cuz she's gonna try and help me and like i shouldnt be carrying all indie burdens alone but I COULDNT HELP IT JHAJSDAKDDJSAK
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elle_o_v_e4eva ([personal profile] elle_o_v_e4eva) wrote2025-06-16 01:17 pm

May + half of June blues

May wasn't exactly "a lot", but it was challenging. I juggled a mini heartbreak, deadlines and exams, and family reunions. Somehow it was more miserable than not.

June is half over and my overall health just grows worse, physically and mentally. Bad news happening left and right, out in the world, and in the online spaces I frequent. On the bright side, I've been reading and creating, and I'm meeting intelligent people, and this has all been inspiring. As stimulating as they are to have around though, I can't help but feel stupid, incapable and useless by comparison. It's the same in class. I feel very behind no thanks to my difficulties with concentration. I ought to take this focus problem more seriously. Literally I feel so stupid that I'm genuinely concerned for my future

To sum things up, I don't have a lot of good things to share and I'm not very happy...I have been neglecting proper selfcare. I might focus on fixing this.