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minds been all over the place today, which is nowhere. i can't wait until i get evaluated because im tired of not knowing what's wrong with me mentally but knowing something is wrong. wanna go do something but there's nothing to do. nothing fun at least that i can do by myself. i'd have to make plans with someone and burden my mom to take me somewhere and spend money on me and i feel like ive been doing that too much. its already out of character for me to ask for what i want but whenever i find the courage to do so everyone's mad at me because they dont wanna do it. how was i ok during the pandemic, this is hell. well i wasn't ok, i just sort of knew how to cope with being alone but i forgot all of that. i don't wanna get into what's been making me feel alone tho because im trying to stay positive and not make a long post complaining! also i feel guilty whenever i sadpost now because i feel like im not as valid as everyone else, but ik that's just a me thing that i need to get over. and plus happy kiwu can accomplish great things ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ

finally did something productive today even if only for like 20 minutes because i was interrupted! i started a sketch for something that shouldn't take too long so i feel more motivated to complete it, and even better i have an entire month so i don't have to rush

Current Mood: lethargic
Current Music: LE SSERAFIM - CRAZY[REVERSED]

i should really listen to that more, it's been stuck in the back of my head all day. she really made a banger and still managed to make it sad and meaningful at the same time, she's so talented T^T

been watching 'doctor cha' on netflix and oh my godddd why is everyone so messy! her cheating husband better get what he deserves, also his sidepiece is so bad why does she want HIM out of everyone... that entire family doesn't deserve her honestly, at least the son is pretty nice tho.

it's been like a month or 2 without piped and i'm going more crazy by the day :') i really wanted to watch all of tzuyu's promotions but they're probably already almost over now and everyone is posting about watching them i'm missing out T^T it's ok tho hopefully i can get the platform_nemo ver(the one that's only cards) and the cd ver of her album and i'll feel better. aw man wait and i'm missing out on yeonjun's debut too!!! he's my txt bias so i wanna watch everything in 4K, for no reason at all ofc. whatever i already have so much on my plate and i always forget to take everything one day at a time, i'll be fine, just stressing. speaking of crazy le sserafim is so 📈 rn i'm so happy for them, like they rlly made a song SO good they went to the vmas like 3 weeks after it's release, it's insane :D

Current Mood: melancholy
Current Music: Giselle - Dopamine