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reach for the stars!
Dec. 26th, 2024 11:40 pmmy to-do list for when I magically stop being β¨depressedπ:
-finally listen to strategy album and post my review in my community here
-draw, like literally anything atp
-find a safe way to post selfies
-make more icons
-make more edits
-start back cooking again
-get over my fear of the wheel and learn to drive
-get a job
-save money
no this isn't a new years resolution list, just wanted to document my ideas somewhere so I don't forget them :p
-finally listen to strategy album and post my review in my community here
-draw, like literally anything atp
-find a safe way to post selfies
-make more icons
-make more edits
-start back cooking again
-get over my fear of the wheel and learn to drive
-get a job
-save money
no this isn't a new years resolution list, just wanted to document my ideas somewhere so I don't forget them :p
big changes kiwu!!
Nov. 12th, 2024 07:30 pmI haven't been on here in years it feels I didn't forget abt it I just haven't been in a blogposting mood. But update! I've been well!! Well I was really, really bad but things are starting to look up, we're starting a new era if you will. My laptop of like 5 years that I formed an emotional connection to died for good recently and it made me really sad, but I think I'm ok now. I've been wanting a canopy bed ever since I was little and I finally have one now, I'm so happy lol. Right now it's just rods I need to get my curtains and I also have fairy lights to add, I'm gonna be so #aesthetic you have no idea. I haven't put my posters up ever since I painted my room a few months ago but I will after I finish my bed, and I also have another poster from my Ready To Be album that I'm gonna finally put up too. I also rearranged my desk and bookshelf around because I needed to move my bed for the canopy rods to fit. So. New room, new laptop, new kiwu! I hate changes especially big ones, so I was crashing out initially but I realized a change of pace might be good for me. Especially since I'm almost an adult now, I need to get used to change eventually lol. Believe it or not, I had a period where I was kinda stuck when it comes to reverse music and I thought I was falling out of love with it, but recently I've been going back to old songs and reversed giselle's solo and realized that wasn't the case, I just needed some good songs to get me back to where I was lol. Still have no YouTube, also I think piped is dead for good now :( . But I'm getting a new laptop soon, so hopefully I can get NewPipe and catch up on everything I've missed this past like 2 months now. Oh god the album is on the k-hiphop woke up remix now my focus officially is thrown the fuck off guard now so i'll end it here LMAO
it's october therefore it's officially pumpkin spice latte season(i don't even drink those tf am i on about)
idk if I'm ready or not. like fall (aka preparing for winter season) is fun but also i feel like i need to mentally prepare. im planning a formal and it's coming up soon so i need to get ready for that too, because i HAVE to dress the best and show these mfs how to do formal attire. even tho im really unathletic and it takes a huge toll on me to set things up, party planning is really fun, i might consider that as a career option too, especially since you don't need to go to school for it. i'm so tired of school i wanna kill it with fire!!! testing week started today and we've already started running into problems, testing took longer than it should because too many people were logged in at once and the testing site was being super slow. but i got a b so that's a good start. tomorrow is algebra tho so idk how i'm gonna manage, hey if no one's got me i know one thing, gauthmath got my back fr. without normal youtube all ive been doing is watching youtube shorts and god they're the worstttt. so much beauty and fashion bullshit i swear influencers are the most insecure mfs on the earth and they have a talent for fearmongering people into adopting those insecurities and getting fomo it's the worst. and the brainrot, i'm getting old y'all. because not even brainrot is funny anymore, it's all old and re-used jokes, 2022 and 2023 brainrot was so much more creative like c'mon we can do better. and if my sister sends me one more jonkler meme i'm gonna fight her!
idk if I'm ready or not. like fall (aka preparing for winter season) is fun but also i feel like i need to mentally prepare. im planning a formal and it's coming up soon so i need to get ready for that too, because i HAVE to dress the best and show these mfs how to do formal attire. even tho im really unathletic and it takes a huge toll on me to set things up, party planning is really fun, i might consider that as a career option too, especially since you don't need to go to school for it. i'm so tired of school i wanna kill it with fire!!! testing week started today and we've already started running into problems, testing took longer than it should because too many people were logged in at once and the testing site was being super slow. but i got a b so that's a good start. tomorrow is algebra tho so idk how i'm gonna manage, hey if no one's got me i know one thing, gauthmath got my back fr. without normal youtube all ive been doing is watching youtube shorts and god they're the worstttt. so much beauty and fashion bullshit i swear influencers are the most insecure mfs on the earth and they have a talent for fearmongering people into adopting those insecurities and getting fomo it's the worst. and the brainrot, i'm getting old y'all. because not even brainrot is funny anymore, it's all old and re-used jokes, 2022 and 2023 brainrot was so much more creative like c'mon we can do better. and if my sister sends me one more jonkler meme i'm gonna fight her!
brain foggy
Sep. 27th, 2024 09:26 pmminds been all over the place today, which is nowhere. i can't wait until i get evaluated because im tired of not knowing what's wrong with me mentally but knowing something is wrong. wanna go do something but there's nothing to do. nothing fun at least that i can do by myself. i'd have to make plans with someone and burden my mom to take me somewhere and spend money on me and i feel like ive been doing that too much. its already out of character for me to ask for what i want but whenever i find the courage to do so everyone's mad at me because they dont wanna do it. how was i ok during the pandemic, this is hell. well i wasn't ok, i just sort of knew how to cope with being alone but i forgot all of that. i don't wanna get into what's been making me feel alone tho because im trying to stay positive and not make a long post complaining! also i feel guilty whenever i sadpost now because i feel like im not as valid as everyone else, but ik that's just a me thing that i need to get over. and plus happy kiwu can accomplish great things ΰΈ
^β’ο»β’^ΰΈ
finally did something productive today even if only for like 20 minutes because i was interrupted! i started a sketch for something that shouldn't take too long so i feel more motivated to complete it, and even better i have an entire month so i don't have to rush
finally did something productive today even if only for like 20 minutes because i was interrupted! i started a sketch for something that shouldn't take too long so i feel more motivated to complete it, and even better i have an entire month so i don't have to rush
giselle stole all my dopamine!!!
Sep. 24th, 2024 06:55 pmi should really listen to that more, it's been stuck in the back of my head all day. she really made a banger and still managed to make it sad and meaningful at the same time, she's so talented T^T
been watching 'doctor cha' on netflix and oh my godddd why is everyone so messy! her cheating husband better get what he deserves, also his sidepiece is so bad why does she want HIM out of everyone... that entire family doesn't deserve her honestly, at least the son is pretty nice tho.
it's been like a month or 2 without piped and i'm going more crazy by the day :') i really wanted to watch all of tzuyu's promotions but they're probably already almost over now and everyone is posting about watching them i'm missing out T^T it's ok tho hopefully i can get the platform_nemo ver(the one that's only cards) and the cd ver of her album and i'll feel better. aw man wait and i'm missing out on yeonjun's debut too!!! he's my txt bias so i wanna watch everything in 4K, for no reason at all ofc. whatever i already have so much on my plate and i always forget to take everything one day at a time, i'll be fine, just stressing. speaking of crazy le sserafim is so π rn i'm so happy for them, like they rlly made a song SO good they went to the vmas like 3 weeks after it's release, it's insane :D
been watching 'doctor cha' on netflix and oh my godddd why is everyone so messy! her cheating husband better get what he deserves, also his sidepiece is so bad why does she want HIM out of everyone... that entire family doesn't deserve her honestly, at least the son is pretty nice tho.
it's been like a month or 2 without piped and i'm going more crazy by the day :') i really wanted to watch all of tzuyu's promotions but they're probably already almost over now and everyone is posting about watching them i'm missing out T^T it's ok tho hopefully i can get the platform_nemo ver(the one that's only cards) and the cd ver of her album and i'll feel better. aw man wait and i'm missing out on yeonjun's debut too!!! he's my txt bias so i wanna watch everything in 4K, for no reason at all ofc. whatever i already have so much on my plate and i always forget to take everything one day at a time, i'll be fine, just stressing. speaking of crazy le sserafim is so π rn i'm so happy for them, like they rlly made a song SO good they went to the vmas like 3 weeks after it's release, it's insane :D
